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03 December 2013 @ 05:04 pm
So, do you all think it's appropriate to ask someone why they were released from a calling?

I guess I just place such a high value on my own privacy, especially in spiritual matters, that it would NEVER cross my mind to ask someone why they were released.

Only a couple months ago, I was called as the RS chorister. A couple weeks ago, I asked to be released due to personal worthiness. So, I was released on Sunday, and the previous chorister asked me why. I was taken aback because I would never ask someone that question. Then last night at Mid-Single FHE, others asked!

I just don't know. I suppose I could be sensitive to private spiritual matters because I have spent the vast majority of my adult life not worthy for callings and sacrament, so not taking about those things is second nature to me. Maybe it isn't such a big deal for other people.

09 September 2012 @ 04:29 pm
Is anyone still active in this community?
15 December 2009 @ 11:29 pm
Hey guys, I just started a goth/industrial LDS group on Facebook. Please join! The more people we have, the greater the possibility you'll find a new friend. Search for the group "Gothic/Industrial Latter-day Saints."

Metalheads, emo kids, etc. also encouraged to join.
22 November 2009 @ 07:13 am
Question for ya'll:

What would you say to someone who doesn't believe in life after death because he/she doesn't know for certain it happens so therefore, they don't believe it? What would you say to someone who is okay with not being with the people they love after they die because they don't want to get their hopes up about something they aren't sure is going to happen?

Thanks in advance misfits.
04 November 2009 @ 04:42 pm
Recently in my ward I noticed that a member of the bishopric, usually one of the counselors, sits in on RS. Is this normal? I've never seen this before. It kind of bothers me because I've always thought of RS as a haven for sisterhood.
18 October 2009 @ 11:48 pm
i dont do this often and i dont know what else to do....

my husband starts student teaching in the spring semester. he has to leave his job to do this. we will be losing all health insurance. the baby will go on chip (the state health insurance for children). we will have nothing. we are going to look into COBRA but we dont know if we can even afford that. from what we are hearing teacher in his field are getting hired almost immediately. but that likely means no job until fall semester next year. 6 months of little to no income.

i work part time at a university. i'm an adjunct. so i get paid little, and i get no health insurance. i'm still hunting for agents (i have an mfa in writing from a pretty elite school.. i've finished my first and second novels.. but so far luck has been against me.)

folks, right now the scene is getting really dark. we are about as skint as you can get. i think all of the christmas gifts this year from us are home made because we can't afford much else. winter is coming. our vegetable garden failed as a lot of people's gardens failed in this area. it was a hard garden year.

i'm just having a hard time seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.

if you have any prayers lying around, any good thoughts, any ideas as to where to submit a ltierary women's novel, writing jobs for blogs or book/movie reviews... etc - where to apply for a high school science teacher gigs, any ways to make money online from home - legit and i am poor (i'm so poor i dont get the R. i'm po') so i can't buy things like arbonne or tupperware - please send them my way....

we are full tithe payers. we are doing all we can. it's just scarey. i know i should be full of faith, my face glowing. but right now i just keep thinking about what if one of us gets sick next semester and we can't afford to see a dr. what about being able to keep food on the table...

it's just getting really hard right now...

so any prayers you have lying around from now on for a while would be hugely appreciated...

thank you so much.
07 October 2009 @ 11:23 am

I've been a member of the church for 4 years.... and in many ways, I'm still a closet case.

I grew up in the arts community. There was a time in my life where ALL my friends fit into three categories:


I live in a bible belt portion of the world in an area that is FILLED with Mormons. So, Mormons have a rep... one that my family finds annoying. My family is very liberal, open to everything... except mormons. They don't seem to like mormons because of all the "rules"... and have problems with a lot of the doctrine. I've come to terms with it... and they are learning to live with it.

Ill be going on a mission in a month, and I know my decision is hurting my family. I know all the stereotypical stuff...."they'll come to terms with it", "its for their own good"... but right now... it's not like that. My family has a high social standing, and me being mormon, and my brother being gay, are two items that are kinda like family secrets. We don't talk about them, acknowledge them, or anything like that. But, you know how you come across a fashionably dressed man, and you just KNOW he's gay.... well, you come across me, and you just KNOW i'm gay.

Last week a friend of my parents asked the mom of one of my friends if I was mormon, and she said yes. All of a sudden I was thrown into a world of trying to protect my family, but also stand up for what I believe in....

Am I weird? Has anyone else out there ever felt like a closet case mormon?


06 October 2009 @ 01:24 pm
I’ve never considered myself either a tomboy, or a girly-girl. I never gave it much thought at all until I moved... to Utah!

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25 September 2009 @ 06:28 pm
Hoping it is okay to post this here. Cross posted to my personal journal.

Why, yes, I am a Mormon, thanks.

A list borrowed from a Facebook Group below cut.

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23 September 2009 @ 09:51 pm
 Hey guys, I've noticed that a lot of us are in the Utah/Salt Lake Counties, and obviously we have stuff in common if we're in this group. I thought it might be fun if we tried to do meetups every once-in-awhile. It would be like... group therapy. lol. No, but really, is anyone game for something like that? Especially since there are so many of us that mentioned in a recent post that we all WRITE STUFF. We could start a little writing group or something. I don't know--just a thought. Hopefully we don't secretly have any mass murderers on here that want to join in. 

Utah can't be that bad if so many of us live here. ;)
Current Location: Provo
Current Mood: chipperchipper
19 September 2009 @ 07:59 pm
today i attended my uncle's funeral. he died of cancer early wednesday morning. he had been diagnosed about 6 weeks ago. it was VERY fast.

my paternal grandparents were the first members of the church in this county, and they raised all their kids in the church. of those six children (five theirs and then a neice's son who they basically adopted) only two remain active in the church. those two families have raised their children in the church and most of those children are active. i think there's one in each family who doesn't attend.

and while it was a beautiful service, i kept thinking, how depressing this is. the reverend who spoke, spoke about the resurrection only in passing. he spoke one the moment that we would be reunited with neil only if we walked in faith, and he thought neil was worth getting to know so you better be good and come to Christ.

he had a different version of the bible, a newer version with different words. not the king james version. he read things from it, and i found myself thinking, that's not what that says, or that's not what that means...

and while the whole room was in tears because we're going to miss our uncle/brother/father/neighbor/grandfather/friend.... it was no help to have a reverend speaking who gave no comfort as to what happens after we die, who spoke about the resurrection almost as if it were mythological. according to legend so to speak.

i found myself feeling so bad for those around me who didn't know the gospel. who didn't know what was going to happen, where he had gone, that yes, indeed you will see him again. it's not some according to legend thing. you will see him.
i found myself being so grateful for the gospel, and for the ordinances of the temple that seal families together.
i can't imagine people being married for 35 years, and then that's it. what a cruel and sadistic joke to play on mankind. to not allow the relationship to continue, to not allow the fatherhood to continue... to continue that familial relationship. There must be more to life than just life and then death and then food for worms...

so my point in posting today is to just say how grateful i am for the gospel. to know really where we do go after we die, and what will happen. does this mean i am in any hurry to get on that long journey to the other side? no. but, it's like having travel brochures before you go on vacation. It's nice to read up on and understand the area you're going to be going to for a long while. Think of those who go on vacation with absolutely no idea where they are going or how they are going to get there or what will happen?

i'm just so glad that we have the gospel, that we have the plan of salvation, and we understand where and what happens.. it's still sad. but it's not the end.. it's merely a going away party...

(cross posted from my personal live journal.)
31 July 2009 @ 09:56 pm
i am a convert. active two years now.
before LDS, when people said "this isnt in Gods plan" or, "God will take care of me" i always thought they were just reaching.

like "think outside the box", or something equally lacking any substance.

but i realized, RIGHT NOW, that He does have a plan for me, he wants me to learn, do and be certain things.

i know now i hurt Him, when i do things that hurt myself. i know he loves me, and if i listen, He will lead me in the right direction. i understand it might not be easy sometimes, but i trust him more than anything ever.

the feelings i am having are so powerful.

has anybody, especially a convert, felt this way before?

what is it?
22 July 2009 @ 05:33 am
im about to ask for help from my bishop.

its not the first time.

he once went over my budget and couldnt understand why i wasnt able to pay my electrick bill and thought something wasnt on the up and up.

it was poor budgeting. this time its from a layoff.

but to be totally honest there are so many other ways i could have cut corners. i was in the wrong. even though i am frugal, spending on cheap things does add up.

should i just say that exactly?

***a little info, im active off and on. havent tithed in a long time. my spouse is Not a member. i dont want it to seem like i treat the church like my ATM.
Have you ever found LDS garments for sale where they shouldn't be? If so, what did you do? How do you explain garments to people who don't know what they are?

I know awhile back they were all over eBay, but I just found a bunch at Goodwill. I ended up talking to a manager about it. But I'm a convert and I've only been wearing garments myself for a year and I'm not sure I explained it well or even if I should have brought it up at all. Yeesh.
28 June 2009 @ 11:52 pm
 Hey everyone...
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14 June 2009 @ 07:53 pm
Today after church, I noticed that the mom of one of my sunbeam kids has a lot of scars on her leg. I'm thinking maybe she is/was a cutter. I don't know her well enough to bring it up, but I'm kinda worried about her, especially since said kid has been acting up in church lately and I heard her and one of her other kids (who's a year older than the one in my class but very nearly catatonic) having words together in the hallway at church this afternoon. What, if anything, do primary teachers do when they notice that there's trouble at home?
14 June 2009 @ 05:52 pm
I am in the process of filing for divorce. The marriage is over, I just need the piece of paper to prove it. It's going to get out at church at any moment now... there will be some in my ward that will be okay with it, but some are gonna really have an issue with this. For all you divorced people out there, how'd you deal with the prying questions, the judgement, the snide remarks, etc.? There is one particular person I know who is going to make a big deal about it and probably bear testimony about it one Sunday and I know that nothing I do will prevent that, but what about the rest of my ward? How was it like for you when you went through your divorce?

Another question? When did you start going to singles events, singles FHE, etc.? I'm thinking I should wait until the divorce is final, but if it goes as slowly as my mom's divorce did, I'll be waiting a looong time. 
24 May 2009 @ 02:34 pm

"We shall not cease from exploration. And the end of all our exploring will be to arrive where we started and know the place for the first time."
~T. S. Eliot

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So I tell you these things because I have come back here again in search of friends.  However, I must admit, I am looking for friends in the real world.  People to hang out with that live in or around Salt Lake City, Utah.

I am also looking for my Religion.  I don't know if I can ever be comfortable being the perfect mormon model, but I am a pretty damn good guy at the core.  So advice with getting back to Church would also be appreciated.

Drop a line here or.....  


22 May 2009 @ 01:37 pm
I have spent the last year or so relatively inactive.

I broke a lot of covenants during that time I wasn't worried, I knew it was wrong and so was my attitude about it.

Now i have given up the bad habits. repented, fixed my damages, made my peace and apologies and I know I have been forgiven.

My question is...am I supposed to confess these things to my bishop or or a GA?

If i need to, i need to, but some of them are very private and i would rather not discuss them with anyone who wasn't involved or directly affected my my behavior and actions.

I confessed some things before my baptism that had happened YEARS before..i didnt feel better for confessing them, and I just wish the person i confessed them to would move away or something.

Without too much detail, these things would prevent me from getting a temple recommend, but i would like to in the future.

And also, when does the clock start running as far as your "worthiness"?

I wasn't worthy then, but I'm striving to live the gospel everyday.